argh. been having a headache these past few days, and it cant be from lack of sleep! i think anyway. cos it only seemed to come on during the weekend when ive been sleeping lots. sigh sigh. hmm i guess my blog has been seeming abit moody recently and i guess its cos sometimes i feel like theres no more fun in my life anymore. everyday its the same routine and theres nothing much to excite or laugh or smile about. (and having a patient with some interesting disorder so u can clerk/examine them is really NOT exciting) kinda feel like when i chose med, i didnt just choose a profession, i chose a life. and this life is one tt doesnt change, ward rds in the morning, seeing patients and running around, talking to families etc etc until its time to go and the nxt day its the same again. and you see patients who know that they are killing themselves with thier lifestyles but yet refuse to stop and so end up in hospital again and again, and sometimes it feel like, can i even make a difference to them? all we are doing is extending thier life so they can continue killing themselves. nowadays, the most interesting things that happen is when the doctors gossip abt each other and i get to overhear them (haha). oh wells. im like probably the least hardworking person around so i dont know why im complaining seeing as i spend most of my time slacking in the students lounge, but i guess its just tt there is really no change in anything eveyday, and i shudder to think tt this is what im gonna have to live with forever. and even when i do meet my friends, everyone says they dont wanna talk about school but yet it inevitably happens. and omg i really really hope tt med does not consume my life.

on another note, mumu just said the same thing to me on msn! haha.

and another note: ignore my rant. im a committment phobe and thus committment to one job forever really scares me